Saturday 8 December 2012

My First Experience With God - by Jana Pauls

I asked my friend Jana to please write her testimony for my blog, as I find it peculiar and fascinating. It is rare that one hears of a group of people all being touched by God at the same time, and in the same way, especially a group of very young, new believers who where so innocent at the time. 

What makes this testimony even more amazing is that I told it to my aunt (whom I rarely speak to over the phone) around 2 weeks ago; I told her the story of Jana and her friend's experience with God. Later that week my aunt worked at a craft market, where a woman 'randomly' told her about this 14 year old girl who had read the book of Revelation that week and that she was extremely distressed by it. Her mother did not exactly know how to handle the situation. My aunt who is a vice-principle of a school ended up counseling this young lady and her mother by telling them this testimony of Jana's, that I had just told her a few days before hand. 

This is Jana's story in her own words:

"I was about 11 years old when my parents first joined a church. At a conference our church attended I answered an altar call in a kids service to invite Jesus into my heart. I didn’t experience it as life changing at that time but from that day I believed that I was going to heaven to be with that Jesus.
It was at that conference my parents bought me my first own Bible and my friend’s parents got them Bibles as well.
It must have been only weeks later when we had a sleep over with a few of the girls from our church at my friend’s house. Our parents, who were all immigrants from former Sovjet Union countries, had a get together away from home to go to the sauna, like many eastern Europeans do.
So we were six girls alone at home between the ages 8-13. It was late and we were all dressed in our pajamas but no one was tired yet. As I looked around the room I saw my friend’s new Bible. None of us has read the Bible before, all we knew is what they tell us at school about Jesus during Christmas time and the Lord’s prayer and some stories from the few times we all attended Sunday school.
Since we were bored and had nothing else to do I suggested to read from the Bible. Since we didn’t know how the Bible is structured and where all the stories were I just decided to read from the end of the book, that usually is the most exciting part!
So I started reading from the middle of the book of Revelation, where it talks about the red dragon and the beasts. The part that really got to us was that it says that everybody will be deceived by the beast and worship it. We also read that Jesus will come as a thief in the night and the end can come tomorrow. Being children we simply believed that the Bible in its entirety is true and none of us questioned the Word or existence of God.
While I am reading, my friends started to get scared of all this horror they are hearing. We knew that what we were reading is not just a scary story but it is a prophecy of God about the future. It became reality to us. So all of us started crying and I couldn’t read any further. We were genuinely scared that if Armageddon happened tomorrow we might also be deceived and fall away and go to hell.
So one of my friends said we must pray. We all sat in a circle holding hands and lifting them up to heaven. None of us prayed out loud in front of anyone before but none of us thought about it at that moment. Each of us prayed out loud one after the other with tears rolling down our faces, crying out to God that we don’t want to be deceived, worship a beast and wear the number of the antichrist. We wanted to be saved from what we read in the book of Revelation and saved from our sin which we knew we had. Our prayer was that we want to go to heaven, no matter what it takes.
After everyone prayed, all of the sudden we all stopped crying and it felt like something like a blanket came down on us. The fear was gone and it was like peace and love came in the room and surrounded us. No one was talking for a few minutes. We all just laid down in bed. Then my friend turned to me and whispered:
“Jana...”
Me: “Yes”
Her: “Can you feel this?”
Me: “Yes”
Her: “What is this?”
Me: “I don’t know, but it’s the same feeling I get in my stomach when I’m on a roller coaster.”
Her: “It makes wanna climb on the roof and shout how awesome God is!”
Me: “Yeah I feel the same way!”
Her: “I also just realized that my stomach ache went away that I had all day, it felt like a hand touched me and then my pain was gone.”
Me: “That must have been God.”

When I closed my eyes trying to sleep I saw something. I saw myself and I was wearing white shining garments. I knew God gave them to me and not people because they didn’t look like normal clothes. That moment I promised God that I would keep my clothes clean and I wasn’t talking about literal clothes I knew it was my life that he made holy and I had to keep it that way.
I also promised Him that I will never doubt that He is real no matter what people say. Because what I’ve experienced was physically tangible and my 5 friends all felt the same thing. But even if they didn’t feel anything I know I did and nobody could ever convince me of anything different. I know something real happened to me, I couldn’t imagine that. Not at 11 years of age.
I didn’t know that the Holy Spirit was a person and that God’s presence can be experienced in that way, especially not outside of church. We were not taught in Sunday school to lift up our hands or how to pray and that God’s Spirit can just come and touch and fill you.
When we told our parents about what happened they said that it must have been the Spirit of God that came to us.
Even though I received Jesus before this event, I know it was on that day that He became real to me and that His Spirit was inside of me.
I never feared hell one day after this. Knowing I am not perfect, I will always know that I am saved by grace through faith, because Jesus came to seek and save that which was lost. Not to give us a hope that we can never be sure of. We can be sure of heaven as long as we are sure of what Jesus did for us and show it in our lives."



This is a picture of Jana and her friends around the time of this event.

Monday 3 December 2012

Book of Romans – Chapter One/Part two

Romans 1:5

5 (a) It is through Him that we have received grace (God’s unmerited favor) (b) and [our] apostleship to promote obedience to the faith and (c) make disciples (d) for His name’s sake among all the nations,

• Vs.5a Jesus is the reason we have Grace today.

Comment: What does Grace mean? It means that God loves us and gives us favor even though we as sinners are not deserving of His favor. In other words His Grace is unmerited.

Why is Grace so important? Grace means that our lack of sin is not what brings us freedom from eternal death, but rather the lack of Jesus’ sin brings life to us. This is good news, because it is impossible for us not to have sin. To prove that we are truly seen by God as being without sin, I have an interesting example of how Grace makes us clean in God’s eyes. This is also the first concrete or visible evidence in the Bible, (after Jesus died for us), that our sin does not cause death anymore…

The O.T priests use to meet with the Holy Spirit in the part of the temple called the Holy of Holies. The Spirit of God used to hover as a ball of light or a cloud above The Ark of the Covenant (also known as the Ark of the Testimony). It is a chest described in Book of Exodus as containing the Tablets of Stone on which the Ten Commandments were inscribed, Aaron's budding staff as well as pieces of manna. Hebrews 9 of the N.T. explains how our “works” or personal “sacrifices” are deemed worthless in putting us in right standing with God i.e. obtaining righteousness.

Hebrews 9:6-9 (New Testament)

6 These arrangements having thus been made, the priests enter [habitually] into the outer division of the tabernacle in performance of their ritual acts of worship.
7 But into the second [division of the tabernacle] none but the high priest goes, and he only once a year, and never without taking a sacrifice of blood with him, which he offers for himself and for the errors and sins of ignorance and thoughtlessness which the people have committed.
8 By this the Holy Spirit points out that the way into the [true Holy of] Holies is not yet thrown open as long as the former [the outer portion of the] tabernacle remains a recognized institution and is still standing,
9 Seeing that that first [outer portion of the] tabernacle was a parable (a visible symbol or type or picture of the present age). In it gifts and sacrifices are offered, and yet are incapable of perfecting the conscience or of cleansing and renewing the inner man of the worshiper.

No one was Holy enough to face God and not die, under the Old Covenant/Old Testament, except for the priests, who had to go through a strenuous ritual of spiritual cleansing, repentance of sins and animal sacrifice to stand before God in the Holy of Holies. These sacrifices and rituals could only ‘hide’ or ‘cover’ their sins but could not take it away completely.

Numbers 18:7 (Old Testament)

Therefore you and your sons with you shall attend to your priesthood for everything of the altar [of burnt offering and the altar of incense] and [of the Holy of Holies] within the veil, and you shall serve. I give you your priesthood as a service of gift. And the stranger [anyone other than Moses or your sons, Aaron] who comes near shall be put to death.

If these priests did not honestly perform these rituals and cleansed themselves enough, their sin caused them to drop dead in the presence of God. On the day of Jesus’ crucifixion, He performed a ritualistic cleansing of our sin, through His death, that gave us (the believers) a permanent legal state of sinlessness, which in turn led to the tearing open of the curtain that divided the Holy Spirit from us (for our own safety up to that point). We would have died being filled with the Holy Spirit, if we where not cleaned of all sin in the eyes of God through the sacrificial death of Jesus.

This is what Grace is all about. It is being guilty of sin but counted as being innocent by God’s legal judgment, because judgment was executed on Jesus, on behalf of all mankind.

Being able to be filled with the Holy Spirit and not dropping dead is proof that “Grace through Jesus” saves our life.
        
• Vs.5b Jesus is the reason we have Apostles today.

Comment: Apostles are exclusively found in the New Testament (N.T.) They take over from the Old Testament (O.T.) Prophets in the task of interacting and or ‘connecting’ people to God through faith and divine revelation. One of the big differences between the two offices mentioned is that Apostles connect people to God by bringing them the Good News of the Gospel, but once people accept this Gospel and become ‘saved’ the Holy Spirit connects them with God through Jesus in a one-on-one relationship, versus the O.T Prophets who where the only ones who could hear God and then had to relate it 2nd hand to the people.

There is also a distinct difference between O.T. prophets and N.T. prophets. O.T prophets heard from God directly and wrote the O.T. through this divine revelation. Today’s prophets are not appointed to add to the Bible; their job is to edify and uplift the congregation through their spiritual gifting as can be seen in this N.T. verse:

1 Corinthians 14:26

What then, brethren, is [the right course]? When you meet together, each one has a hymn, a teaching, a disclosure of special knowledge or information, an utterance in a [strange] tongue, or an interpretation of it. [But] let everything be constructive and edifying and for the good of all.

There is also a difference between the Apostles who lay the foundation of the early church and the Apostle described in the 5-fold ministry office (Apostle, Prophet, Teacher, Pastor, Evangelist - Ephesians 4:11) i.e. today’s Apostles. Original Apostles walked with Jesus as His disciples, with the exception of Paul who was radically converted from a Christian murderer, (working for the Jewish order), to becoming the Apostle that wrote 2/3 of the NT. (See Acts 9 Saul became Paul)

What is the job description of an Apostle? It is one who promotes obedience to the faith and also makes disciples of people in every Nation of the world, including you.

• Vs.5c Make disciples

Comment: What is a disciple?

John 8:31

“So Jesus said to those Jews who had believed in Him, If you abide in My word [hold fast to My teachings and live in accordance with them], you are truly My disciples.”

Vincent's Word Studies
Believed on Him (πεπιστευκότας ατ)
Note the different phrase, distinguishing the Jews from the mixed company in John 8:30. Rev., rightly, believed Him.
If ye continue (ἐὰν μες μείνητε)
The emphasis is on the ye, addressed to those whose faith was rudimentary; who believed Him, but did not yet believe on Him. Rev., abide.
In my word (ν τ λόγ τ μ)
Literally, in the word which is mine: peculiarly mine, characteristic of me. The expression is intentionally stronger than my word. Compare my love (John 15:9).
Indeed (ληθς)
Literally, truly; as Rev. As those who believe on me, not as those who are moved by temporary excitement to admit my claims.

• Vs.5d For His name’s sake

Comment: See the same wording in Psalm 106

Psalm 106:8

“Nevertheless he saved them for his name's sake, that he might make his mighty power to be known.”

Geneva Study Bible
Nevertheless he saved them for His name's sake, that he might make His mighty power to be known.
The inestimable goodness of God appears in this, that he would rather change the order of nature than have His people not be delivered, even though they were wicked.

Clarke's Commentary on the Bible
He saved them for His name's sake - למען שמו lemaan shemo, "on account of His name;" to manifest His own power, goodness, and perfections. There was nothing, which He could draw from them as a reason why He should save them; therefore He drew the reason from Himself.

Romans 1:5

5 It is through Him that we have received grace (God’s unmerited favor) and [our] apostleship to promote obedience to the faith and make disciples for His name’s sake among all the nations,

After studying the full meaning of the ‘carefully selected words’ Paul used in the 5th verse of Romans 1, this is my interpretation and understanding of it…

5. Jesus is the reason we have unmerited favor, this means that on the day of Jesus’ crucifixion, He performed a ritualistic cleansing of our sin, through His death, that gave us (the believers) a permanent legal state of sinlessness, and ever lasting life, which in turn led to the tearing-open of the curtain that divided the Holy Spirit from us. We would have died being filled with the Holy Spirit, if we were not cleansed of all sin in the eyes of God through the sacrificial death of Jesus. This unmerited favor is called His Grace. His Grace is our ‘free pass’ to everlasting life. I, Paul, as one of God’s appointed Apostles have taken over from the Prophets of old to introduce to you the truth of who the God of Abraham Isaac and Jacob is, according to the New Covenant that Jesus brought into being. As an Apostle I am commissioned to fill you with the Holy Spirit trough the laying on of hands and equipping you to become a person who relies on Christ, not as those who are moved by temporary excitement to admit His claims, but one who lives and breaths by the words in this Holy Bible that is so peculiarly His and characteristic of Him. We as believers hold fast to being His followers because we believe the fact that He saved us on account of His name, to manifest His own power, goodness, and perfections, as there was nothing, which He could draw from our forefathers as a reason why He should save all the nations of the world. Therefore He would rather change the order of nature and draw the reason from Himself than to let us perish in hell for all eternity.


Bibliography:

-      Geneva Study Bible - Bible Suite by Biblos


-      Clarke's Commentary on the Bible - Bible Suite by Biblos


-      Vincent's Word Studies - Bible Suite by Biblos


-      Amplified Bible



Saturday 1 December 2012

God of Miracles Part 8 – "Heal my eyes Lord"

I can’t tell you for sure why the same type of miracles seems to come in clusters, but it might be that we develop our faith around our successes in a specific area of our faith walk. I suppose it could also be that a specific anointing rests on a house or a person who believes for the healing of others in a particular area. I am just not sure. I wrote about Priscilla's eye healing in my blog entry called "God of miracles 5 - "Glass-Bottle-Bottom" in August this year, and will soon also write about a man named Gregory, who’s eyes where also healed.

A few weeks ago Apostle André Roebert called the pastors of our church, including myself to lay hands on the people who needed healing. It is normal for me to feel the anointing flow tangibly through my hands, but in this particular instance the pure force and power of God almost threw me off my high heels!

I wish I had the words to describe the feeling of being used as a “conductor” to deliver God’s healing. Our bodies are so weak compared to God’s might. Obviously there is no pain involved, but the sheer force of energy flowing through you and into the person that needs the healing, leaves your body in a state of overstimulation. In this particular case this overstimulation got so intense that I started yelling as if someone was tickling me until I could not bare it anymore! It was so intense that I called Jade (one of our youths) who was sitting close by to come and put her hand on the woman, as I knew that that she would be interested in experiencing such a ‘tangible’ healing.

At the time I did not know the person we where laying hands on. I have since found out that her name is Sjara Jara and she is 70 years old. When she came and stood in front of me for prayer, she didn’t tell me what she needed prayer for. She was wearing a fashionable pair of square-rimed glasses and was dressed in a beautiful African cultural dress. I remember asking her to remove her specs and then put my hands on her eyes, after that, God took over.

At the time, I needed no convincing that healing took place, but I was very exited when Sjara came up to me a week or two later (without her specs) to tell me that her eyes had truly been healed. She told me that she was scheduled for an eye operation and had had great trouble with her eyes for quite some time in her life.  She is very exited about what God had done for her.

The picture of Sjara and Myself is unfortunately not that great and I will try to have a better one taken soon…